Ashley Graham Felt Like an Alien Was Taking Over Her Bodyby Laura Driver
Ashley Graham has opened up on some of the struggles she went through during pregnancy, revealing that she felt like ‘an alien’ was taking over her body. Ashley welcomed her first child Isaac with husband Justin Ervin in January.
She has been very open about the realities of motherhood since, covering everything from stretch marks to breastfeeding for her 10.9 million followers.
Recalling her pregnancy Ashley said: "I was so excited. I knew immediately I was going to be a great mom."
The plus-sized supermodel has always been a champion of body positivity but admits she struggled at times with the changes her own body was going through. She said: “That was the wildest part. I thought, 'What about the things I’ve told myself? What about the affirmations I’ve gone through? None of these mattered because my body was changing so rapidly. It really took me some time to figure it out mentally, because it was like there was an alien taking over my body."
Looking back, she now thinks she might have been suffering from prenatal depression. She added: "When you go from laughing to crying in 30 seconds, you do wonder if you are OK. Unbeknown to me, that’s pregnancy.”
She also recalled the home birth and said that Justin was frustrated at being unable to do much to help. She described a photo that was taken at the time and said: “There’s a photo of him rubbing my arm as I’m hanging over the edge of the pool, gazing into the eyes of the midwife, who’s keeping me focused and helping me count. 9You can tell there’s a tear running down his face – it was agonising for him to see me in so much pain and not to be able to do anything about it."
Like many new parents, the couple have struggled with raising a baby under lockdown. They lost a friend to Covid-19 but Ashley said: “The silver lining is having all of these incredible, special moments with Isaac, and the nostalgia of being with my son in the home I grew up in. “I’ve had time to focus, and I’m so grateful.”